I ran to my bedroom, and locked the door
I couldn’t take it, no more, no more
I opened my window, and stuck my head out first
staring down at the mud and dirt
I had to do it, it had to be now
it’s the only way, the only way I knew how
I sat on the ledge, looking up at the sky
hoping, dreaming, praying I could fly
fly away with the birds, away from it all
and there I leapt, and I started to fall
fast, faster, until I hit ground
my head was spinning, round and round
I tried to think, but nothing came to mind
I felt pain, like the devil’s kind
it was getting cold, and I was frightened, I admit
but there I lay, I finally did it
I ended the pain, the suffering and tears
I planned this for oh so many years
and now, I lay, bleeding and bruised
omg, what the hell did I do
I had so much ahead of me, a life to live
now its gone, because of what I did
how stupid, how brainless, what have I done
my life was short, it just begun
and now I cant believe it, I really am, I’m dead
I’m away from it all, just like I said
I wanted this, I did, really
and now I got it, but I’m not happy
is that what I really wanted, to die
this was my first, my last, and only try
did I plan this out right, did I want to be dead
I knew I couldn’t, but shook my head
I didn’t want to be dead, all alone
I wanted to be happy, I wanted to go home
But now I cant, cause
I’m away from it all.
 
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