I can see it now, I can see it clear
This person inside is who I fear

Her jaded appearance is all you see
I found out awhile ago that this girl is me

My tears are falling shades of red
From all the invisible blood i bled

Deep inside where my emotions stay
Hooked on drugs not knowing the way

The feeling I once longed for now is something i dread
With a body so cold and an expression so dead

You can see in my eyes, the pain so deep
All the mistakes that i made I'm not willing to keep

I'm choking on the drugs i have injected
And spitting them up on the world Ive infected

With drug addiction, pain, and heartfelt lies
For so many months i let drugs hide my eyes

But now that i let go and they're forced to show
The pain is still worse than you'll ever know

From trying to cope to make things right
My eyes look dead and no longer shine bright

But the time has now come, the turn i shall take
The road is a long one, but the trip i will make

As i meet my goals, my insecurities will fly
Then at last i shall walk with my head held high!


 
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