The only thing thats worse than my broken heart
Is all the memories i look at that tore it all apart

I look back at my past and the most painful thing i see
Is that my heart got dismantled all because of me

I felt so alone so i became attention seeking
But i didn't see it then that the pain through my eyes was leaking

I could feel it at night when i sat down and bled
Everyones painful words, controlling thoughts in my head

For the attention that i wanted, the kind my soul would crave
And every time i didn't get it, my heart was forced to cave

I slowly became invisible unnoticed in my loving home
Forced to hang on but dying on my own

I could feel it taking over me, id act out in despair
I would cry, scream, bleed, and slowly rip out my hair

I still came unnoticed, unloved, and nothing more
Still attention seeking but things were worse than ever before

I would cut and watch it bleed to relieve the uncontrollable pain
But i could still feel the sickness flowing throughout my vein

So then i turned to drugs, to hide the pain within my eye
So i could be carefree and my soul would no longer cry

So my tears would stop their fall and my heart would finally beat
And id finally feel strong enough to stand on my two feet

For all the the times of defeat and every battle fought
Everything was for attention, the attention i never got!


 
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