Cold and lonely in my bed is where i quietly layed.
My whole life has changed over one statement that i made.

They took me to a psychiatric unit, where i was forced to stay.
Where right in front of my eyes i was forced to watch my family slip away.

Just by telling my mom i was going to overdose on pills.
By being away from her do you know how much happiness that kills?

They say its for my own good and its for the best,
But sometimes i think it'd be easier if i was layed to rest.

I can still talk to my mom and see her now and then,
And when she leaves i act like I'm happy but this smile is only pretend.

Knowing shes leaving without me, on her way home.
While I'm left here heartbroken and to cry all alone.

Wondering if daddy's at home waiting in his chair.
Wondering if you reach out for me yet knowing I'm not there.

I just want to come home, i miss everyone so much.
I can feel the pain no longer, my body's numb to touch.

I'm sorry for my attitude, i cant look you in the eye.
I turned to god for answers, but he only made me cry.

The crisom tears i know too well, falling shades of red.
While my happiness and strength were slowly left for dead.

Like all the feelings in me that slipped away and died.
Will never amount to all the tasteless tears Ive cried.

I'm sick of failing myself and always falling apart.
So now I'm letting this all go and following whats in my heart!

 
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