Today I Sit and think as I remember I sink, deep down in my chair brushing
my long blonde hair..I remember this, Do I miss?-No!
I have set goals, never thought much about them, What were they? Lousy words
coming from some drunks mouth...I hear a baby cry, is that my baby?? Oh yea
maybe.
Then I look back in the mirror all I see is someone or something everybody
feared. My hair a tangled mess, $5.99 bottle of vodka reeked on my dress.
Desirable was i? Men falling at my feet..Invisible I was I knew what they
wanted....Haunted dreams is it all real? God Damnit what is it I do feel?
Now I can look deep and see who I am. I set goals, reach to the stars..I
reach into my inner spirituality, when all I hear are the light sounds
echoing in the darkness. I am beautiful inside, I never again want to hide
myself within the bottle. No more of being a whore to the booze that once
caressed my inner soul...Im now gonna let go of the pain, so I can finally
feel sane again. I was invisible then...On top of the world..A drunk...Who
could that be? hmmm... but me..untouchable me...Clean & sober me...
Free.....
 
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