you told me you hated me
and to get out of your life
but the only way to to that, dad
is suicide

you've never paid attention
to the cuts on my arms
i always tried to hide them
because im ashamed of that form of harm

all i wanted was a father
one that would actually care
but i cant find that in you
because youve never been there

but the thing is you'll never be my father
much less my dad
because in order to be that, you have to be a man

because itd take a real man
to notice his daughter slipping away
and that the distance between us
kept growing more and more each day

you never noticed
the effect of your agression
you never realized you were
the cause of your childs depression

you never felt
your own child's tears
you didnt seem to get
that you were one of her biggest fears

whenever youd see the scars
i just simply lied
because i knew youd never stop and think
that maybe they were from an attempted suicide

all the scars
theyre there because of you
and then the newer cuts..
theyre because of you too

but the thing is
you said you never wanted to see me again
and youre getting your wish
because that did it, that was the end
 
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