Why are you running away?
What's your reason for not staying?
Is it the people around you?
Is the person you can’t stand really just like you?

Are you happy?
Or is it just a mask that you can never remove?
Do you hold the sadness of the world?
Or does the world hold the wrath of your unhappiness?

These questions annoy me
But for the others it would make them see
It would show them that I am hurt
It would show them that I’m not crazy

Just because I like the pain
Just because bloodshed is my only form of comfort
Doesn’t mean there’s something wrong
It just means that I want this life to be over

I want this as soon as possible
Total desolation would be a dream
All by myself without rules or limitations
Above all, completely away from you

The people that I want to be away from
Seem to care as I move farther away
They don’t understand that I want to be independent
Maybe ending this all will show them……..

What if I were to kill myself with your gun?
Would you feel responsible? Would you even care?
Would u hand me the bullets and polish the gun?
Is the nicest thing you could do?

Standing there in the living room with the gun to my head
Wanting to no what happens after your dead
Pulling the trigger…. Falling to the floor
Lying there helpless, as I’ve done before.

 
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