I bury my head in my arms
I lean forward and scream
I tear at the flesh on my arms
I want it to go away
I want this pain to stop
I stand and run away
I end up running back here
I try to find a way out of this maze
I get trapped in a dead end
I can’t get out of the maze
I can’t get the maze out of my head
I bury my head in my arms
I lean forward and scream
I cry and yell for help
I slowly realize no ones listening
I can’t stand being myself
I can’t stand being so alone
I curl up into my corner
I can’t decipher what I feel
I hug my knees so close to my body
I cry and yell for help
I know no one is listening
I have to do something
I have to find a way out
I have to run
I run and run until I fall to the ground
I ran and ran and got no where
I can’t get out
I can’t remember what it’s like to smile
I can’t remember what happiness is
I can’t remember the dream I had when I was young
I can’t remember my hopes
I chased away those who wished to help
I scowled at anyone who tried to get close
I lost myself in this maze I built
I now can’t find my way out
I am my own worst enemy
I stand up straight and scream
I wipe the tears from my eyes
I stop my flowing blood
I continue trying to find my way out
I wander in the sullen stillness of my mind
 
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