I want to get away
Leave all of this behind
Live in my dreams
A small place to hide

I live with these feelings
I push deeper inside
Put on a front
Act like I’m fine

I’m being torn apart
Worse day by day
Feel the bleeding of my heart
Willing the pain to subside

Don’t know who I am
Two different people
Dr. Jekyl, Ms. Hyde
Which am I?

Occupied with loneliness
Thoughts I can’t control
Not dealing with the stress
Putting it all aside

Point of view tinted black
Aching to feel whole
Absent minded purposely
Wanting someone to know

Trying to explain
This never-ending fall
Confused by the pain
Wishing to end it all

Life with no meaning
Lacking inspiration
Nothing to believe in
Lost in daily habit

Creation is an ocean
I’m drowning in its waves
Oblivious to happiness
The one no one saves


Trapped in a charade
Can’t reveal the truth
My life on parade
Everyone now knows

I am a fake
A fake to be someone
That someone now dead
Why not me instead?

Apart of the maya
My soul shedding tears
Making rain where you lay
Can you feel it?

Sorrow & hate
My feelings of choice
I cherish my misery
Alone

I’m afraid
All I see is lies
The love is untrue
I only have myself

A concoction of feelings:
Scorn for mankind
Disgust for myself
Helplessness against life

Lost in contradictions:
Love without standards
Relationships without expectations
Feelings put aside

Sleep is an escape
Dreams full of agony
Death seems real
This pain is me

Life of no substance
Mankind lost its way
Caught up in possessions
The greed of each day

Mind cramped with thoughts
Fragments of imagination
Why is this my life,
Or is this my creation?

I feel defeated
Nothing left to hide
Creation still an ocean
Swept away in the tide
 
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